Ragged and Shoddy

Excerpt taken from Shadow of the Almighty (from the journal of Jim Elliot):

December 5. "Deep sense of uselessness this morning. Enjoyed prayer, not for the thrusting out of laborers so much as for their heart-preparation in learning to know Christ. What a ragged, shoddy thing Christianity has come to be, honoring men and means, places and crowds--O Lord, deliver me from the spirit of this faithless generation. how I should long to see the simplicity and powerful beauty of the New Testament fellowship reproduced, but no one seems to be similarly exercised here, so I must wait. O Christ, let me know Thee--let me catch glimpses of Thyself, seated and expectant in glory, let me rest there despite all wrong surging round me. Lead me in the right path, I pray."

Feeling very much the same today...After spending three hours with a good friend I haven't seen in a while (Sarah), and spending time talking about our same desires and passions for the world and missions, I realize how much I have missed that. I haven't had it in a while...I was able to hear more of her heart for Brazil and it felt so good to get excited together and feel challenged together and feel convicted together. I so thirst for New Testament fellowship...Oh how I long to know Christ and know Him also through fellowship with others. Today was wonderful...much needed...but I long for more.