Sunday, November 28, 2004

Wedding Dress

"If you could love me as a wife
and for my wedding gift, your life
Should that be all I’d ever need
or is there more I’m looking for

and should I read between the lines
and look for blessings in disguise
To make me handsome, rich, and wise
Is that really what you want

I am a whore I do confess
But I put you on just like a wedding dress
and I run down the aisle
and I run down the aisle
I’m a prodigal with no way home
but I put you on just like a ring of gold
and I run down the aisle to you

So could you love this bastard child
Though I don’t trust you to provide
With one hand in a pot of gold
and with the other in your side

I am so easily satisfied
by the call of lovers so less wild
That I would take a little cash
Over your very flesh and blood

Because money cannot buy
a husband’s jealous eye
When you have knowingly deceived his wife"
-By Derek Webb

Sigh...This is such a good song...
And he has a new cd! It's called: I See Things Upside Down. woohoo!

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Encounter With Light

"To believe with certainty, somebody said, one has to begin by doubting."

"The best argument for Christianity is Christians: their joy, their certainty, their completeness. But the strongest argument against Christianity is also Christians--when they are sombre and joyless, when they are self-righteous and smug in complacent consecration, when they are narrow and repressive, then Christianity dies a thousand deaths. But, though it is just to condemn some Christians for these things, perhaps, after all, it is not just, though very easy, to condemn Christianity itself for them. Indeed, there are impressive indications that the positive quality of joy is in Christianity--and possibly nowhere else. If that were certain, it would be proof of a very high order." Sheldon Vanauken (A Severe Mercy)

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

A Birthday

Tomorrow is the birthday of a dear friend (Hannah). I'm writing to wish you (Hannah) a happy birthday NOW because tomorrow will be crazy with stage crew business and I'm afraid I will be unable to post. :)

I love you and want to wish you a most joyous birthday! May God bless you and keep you as you embark on yet another year with Him! woohoo! The great adventure.....
You are amazing and I love you so so much!

Monday, November 08, 2004

Passionate Surrender

For The Sake Of The Call (by S.C. Chapman)

Nobody stood and applauded them
So they knew from the start
This road would not lead to fame
All they really knew for sure was Jesus had called to them
He said "Come follow me" and they came
With reckless abandon they came

Empty nets lying there at the waters edge
Told a story that few could believe
And none could explain
How some crazy fishermen agreed to go where Jesus led
With no thought for what they would gain
For Jesus had called them by name and they answered

We will abandon it all for the sake of the call
No other reason at all but the sake of the call
Wholly devoted to live and to die...


Not for the sake of a creed or a cause
Not for a dream or a promise
Simply because it is Jesus who calls
And if we believe we'll obey
And we'll answer....

We will abandon it all for the sake of the call
No other reason at all but the sake of the call
Wholly devoted to live and to die
For the sake of the call....

Friday, November 05, 2004

Holy Blood

I've been thinking today about the persecuted Church. We had a speaker in chapel share a little of what is going on globally in the sphere of missions. As I sat there, I was overcome with the desire to go and be a part of that work. I felt the familiar pang of longing to meet lost people and proclaim the love of Christ to those who have not heard. I thought of the quote by Jim Elliot that I seem to have come across a lot lately:

"You wonder why people choose fields away from the States when young people at home are drifting because no one wants to take time to listen to their problems. I'll tell you why I left. Because those stateside young people have every opportunity to study, hear, and understand the word of God in their own language, and these Indians have no opportunity whatsoever. I have had to make a cross of two logs, and lie down on it, to show the Indians what it means to crucify a man. When there is that much ignorance over here and so much knowledge and opportunity over there, I have no question in my mind why God sent me here. Those whimpering Stateside young people will wake up on the day of judgment condemned to worse fates than these demon-fearing Indians, because, having a Bible, they were bored with it -- while these never heard of such a thing as writing."
Jim Elliot (taken from Shadow of the Almighty)

I think that what has added to my desire to go is seeing my sister prepare and head in that direction. I feel so helpless--so useless. But I know I'm not ready...I must be content with where God has placed me currently. There is a time for everything...
Please pray with me as I continue seeking His will for me now.

"Father, take me life, yea, my blood if Thou wilt, and consume it with Thine enveloping fire. I would not save it, for it is not mine to save. Have it Lord, have it all. Pour out my life as an oblation for the world. Blood is only of value as it flows before Thine altar." Jim Elliot

Struggling to live in passionate surrender,

Monday, November 01, 2004

Too Much Sugar

I am exhausted and on sugar overload...not a good combination. yuck.

Today was so beautiful! I love, love, love the weather! Sigh...

Anyway, I am really upset that I was so tired because I couldn't pay attention near the end of Christian Living and I was super antsy in English. Government was better but still...I hate feeling so sleepy. Why have I been so tired lately?! Hannah, a theory?...

Hannah's birthday is a week from Wednesday and I'm super excited! I want to give her her present now...bummer.

I guess that's all...this was super pointless and now I am going to go take a nap...or do homework. hmmm, take a nap. :)