Saturday, January 30, 2010

because charity sang

This morning Charity was singing The Valley Song by jars of clay. When i got home from pcm i started listening to "Where I Began," the Andrea and Hallie mix, Vol. One. First of all, I love that song. Second, I love this mix. God taught me a lot about Himself and a lot about myself through these songs...and about living life with other people.

You have led me to the sadness
I have carried this pain
On a back bruised, nearly broken
I'm crying out to you

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

When death like a Gypsy
Comes to steal what I love
I will still look to the heavens
I will still seek your face

But I fear you aren't listening
Because there are no words
Just the stillness and the hunger
For a faith that assures

While we wait for rescue
With our eyes tightly shut
Face to the ground using our hands
To cover the fatal cut

And though the pain is an ocean
Tossing us around, around, around
You have calmed greater waters
Higher mountains have come down

It was a "difficult" pcm today--highly frustrating and deeply challenging. God has granted both Charity and I a certain sensitivity to the concerns of the heavy-laden and observant hearts for situations of "injustice." So, naturally, we feel deeply the desre to see R. and E. succeed, grow, experience life and renewed purpose here, so far from their home. Not only that, but the hope is for them to truly, eternally, recognize a worth that is borne out of the reality that they've been formed in the image of God himself. I guess the hope and longing we feel can't really be expressed--it's too much for words. All this to say, please pray for these women we love. Pray for us--the courage to love with honesty, patience, and grace.
He has calmed greater waters and higher mountains have come down.

Rise up, you faith, for the Spirit of God will lead you into truth, praying the words you can't find to pray and expressing your heart before Almighty.


citizenofheaven said...

I'm in the library crying about this right now...sigh... at the same time my heart is singing of mercy.

Andrea said...

it's such a painful tension sometimes.